Tell me why I have to put up with all that rubbish that fucking idiotic bastard.

I am worth more than this.

seven things (from intrigue's blog)
7 things that scare me:

- falling very sick e.g. cancer/kidney failure
- losing my eyesight
- losing family and friends I love
- not losing people I don’t like (walau! scary!)
- Rubbery Robbery Roy (my lovable but scary colleague)
- losing my temper with bosses/supervisors/in-laws
- scary movies (like Re-cycle)

7 things I like the most:

- Mr Saw!
- My friends
- Party!
- Party music!
- Nice food
- Trashy romance novels
- RPGs
(one more, money!)

7 important things in my room:

- Bed! (otherwise, what’s the point?)
- Books
- Me
- Sometimes, Mr Saw
- Clothes
- Toys (hee hee hee!)
- Facial products

7 random facts about me:

- Deep in my heart, I like eating chocolates. But I don’t like eating chocolates, if you catch my drift.
- I love my hamster, Cotton, who died in 2006.
- I want a new hamster.
- I don’t like dogs.
- I want a cat. But I don’t want a cat.
- I want to be a fashion designer / illustrator. But I’ve got no talent.
- I love Project Runway.

7 things I plan to do before I die:

- Have a baby. Hahaha!
- Lose weight.
- Learn to cook.  
- Get a car license.
- Get a bike license.
- Work in another country.
- Find my calling in life

7 things I can do:

- read in the shower
- meddle in other people’s affairs
- forget everything I’ve ever seen or heard
- stare at the same page for two hours at work
- take things personally
- scold people for cutting my queue
- speak in technical linguistic jargon and sian my way around

7 things I can’t do:

- talk to my family in a civil tone
- tell certain people what I really think of them
- meddle in Mr Saw’s affairs
- tell people off
- have an orgy?
- go to space
- fly?

7 things I say the most:

- what? I can’t hear you lah!
- oh yeah har.
- omg
- walau!
- it’s difficult to do worse than these people without first going through pre-frontal lobotomy
- people should stop counting their navel pimples and wasting my time
- I feel so stupid!

7 celebrity crushes:

- Robert redford
- Jeremy irons
- Adrian pasdar (sp)
- Angelina jolie
- Christian bale
- Christopher reeve
- some Taiwanese actor. Dunno his name.

I don't think I will ever receive a ms that doesn't throw me into the throes of angst.   |||-_-|||

Manuscript. Old man. Manuscript. Old man.

Attempts to fix illogical writings or to understand irrational ramblings by the old man make my teeth hurt!

Sigh. Been making quite a lot of tactless slips nowadays. Sometimes, I can be quite insensitive. Being with a thick-skinned man has spoilt me. Gib lets insults wash over him like water over stone (which is both exasperating and admirable).

You know how when you are good friends with someone, you would think that some mistakes you make would be forgiven right? Like if I behave tactlessly towards my cherished 'sisters' , they may be peeved for a while, but it won't change our relationship. We're FRIENDS and will remain so.

Then when someone holds a grudge for something I carelessly said or did a long long time ago, and our relationship became awkward as a result, what does that make our relationship? Are we really friends? Don't I have a right to that person's forgivness, when we've known each other for some time, I thought she knew me, and most of all, I really really thought we were good friends? What must I do to explain to her that no slight was ever intended and that I really think she's wonderful?

Who am I to judge though? I've been guilty of the exact same thing myself.

Gah. All this guilt. I feel like Lady Macbeth. Always doing metaphorical washing of hands. I think I am the one with OCD (and not Mentos).

I am tired of people. Will not talk to anyone for a week. Should have gone for the meditation retreat with Gib. Though, when I come back, the problem will still remain.

Oh, except Mentos. I will talk to Mentos, since soon, I won't have a chance to talk to her at all *cries* By the way, Warren, I think given the amount of contact we have since you resigned, you might as well be in Australia, like Mentos will be. Duh.

Special wave to lil angel: Hey! How are you doing? I'll drop by when I am done angsting. :)